You creep upon me. Clinging to my every thought. Dragging me down. Clutching my heart. A deadening in my chest. I weep for you. I beg for your release. I try to shut you down. But you won't let go. I force myself into a sleep and I quietly wish you away with a mumbled prayer. I try to flush you away with my tears until my mind gives up.
But in the morning you are still there. I feel you. I sense you in my every thought. My body aches. My blood boils. They all see you. I try to hide you from them. And they all wonder why I won't just remove you. I wish I knew how.
So often I reach for you. I want so badly for you to reach for me. I clumsily give you the opportunity. I set you up. I wait for you to come to me. But you don't. And those awful thoughts that I whisper to myself all become true.
No comments:
Post a Comment