Depakote has cured me (subtitle: my brain is runny eggs)

I rushed to the pharmacy yesterday to pick up my new manic depression drug, Depakote.  The doctor told me that this would help stabilize my moods (but likely would not help with depression).  It's an experiment.  And I was so ready to get started on this, I walked into the house and swallowed one.

Within 15 minutes I felt like the wold was slowing down.  I sat down.  I took deep breaths.  And I felt a calm warming over me that I have never known.  I found myself checking myself for a pulse.  I felt my own heartbeat and I wondered if that was different.  Suddenly, I didn't give a shit about ... anything.  And it felt wonderful.

Last night I laid down in bed, and didn't get out my laptop.  I didn't need to.

I watched some football.  But I didn't really care about who was playing.  So I got on my laptop.  But I didn't really care about checking my email.  I put my laptop away.  I turned off the TV.  And I decided to go to sleep.  And I went to sleep.

And I slept.  Harder than I can ever remember sleeping before.

I have awoken to a new world.  I feel like a vampire who has been roaming the earth hungry.  But was just freed from his nightmarish desires.

I feel like I pulled out a part of my brain and castrated it.

Part of me died yesterday.  I buried it.  And I don't think I care. 

But then I have only been on this stuff for 14 hours or so.  Let's see if I can get through a work day on this shit.