Friday, October 18, 2013

JESUS CHRIST WTF HELP (subtitle: i am not okay)

While I think the meds may have successfully numbed my brain, I can still feel my manic episodes coming on.

I am paranoid (why aren't you talking to me?)
I am jealous (why don't you want to spend time with me?)
I am angry (why do I feel like this?  my fucking face is red!)

How soon until the depression comes back.

Jesus, what will that feel like?

I am so awake from the coffee.

So asleep from my drugs.

I just want to throw up.

I want to scream.

I want to tear off my skin.

Operator, I need an exit.

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